clear dream



Fri.- last night I dreamed of Caesar - and he sat in a car and I talked to him through the window - I touched his hand and kissed him and he said "I never got to take your clothes off" and I said "and you never will" but we told each other that we loved each other - then he left and there were some strange machines I put things into - I'm not sure what they are_-then I dream - these were strong clear dreams - , of a letter,I sat at a table and read - there were many beautiful feelings expressed in this letter - I put it back into the envelope - it was a letter from someone I loved very much - and I put the letter on the table and remember seeing the postage stamp on the envelope - then someone put a bowl on the table on top of the letter_rather meanly_and I saw 2 other bowls on the table between me and the person who placed the bowl - it was Lee, and he was dishing-out some rather meager stew , and he behaved rather meanly toward me - and I felt he knew what was in the letter - and I had some confused feelings about who he was and if he'd actually written the letter to me or what? Had we once been lovers - expressing his love in written words. Did my reading the letter again in his presence irritate the idea that we had problems expressing our feelings to one another - ?

Journal notes
Tokyo 1991

© Marie A. Kazalia


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